Neglected

This blog has not seen a post for quite sometime now. So I'm dropping one now. :)


Its defense week. :) I still haven't finished my business plan (which I will defend on Thursday.) Its okay I guess, I have the most awesome adviser. She doesn't advise. Nor does she teach. She gave me an outline just so I have an idea on what I'm doing and because I'm a ninja I googled. LO AND BEHOLD, she just got it online. What the hell. I'm starting to doubt the education system of this country...

Its almost October. :) I have seminar end of the month. My grandmum's birthday is also on October. And its the dreaded month of sembreak. (which is really just a week for enrollment.)

xxx,
K<3

In the next future

Hi guys,

I can almost feel the end of college. (Three cheers!) Its these kind of cramming moments where you wake up at wee hours to finish your required work that I will miss. I will keep this short because I have a class in an hour or so and I still haven't done any of my preparations (like change my school books from yesterday's class to today's lecture handouts.)

In the event of that very near future let's all go out and travel. (And by we I do mean us three!) Why? Because we've never done it. And because its a start of a new adventure and I propose we do it with heaps of swag.

I happened to chance upon this photo will checking one of my friends blog's. (I don't think the photo is hers, I think its one of her friends' photo.) We can start with this since its considerably near, just a few hours ride. :) It would just be like going out to party in the city except overseas. :)

yes! those are candies growing from a tree, and they look so adorable!

It would be wonderful if we all did something spectacular soon! :)

I should drag my ass to school now. :) Love you heaps!

xxx,
K <3

Constant Denial

I suppose you guys have learned of my facebook page's deactivation. There are numerous reasons for that, but its primarily just the "escape." Escape sums all the excuses for its (what's the term?) I dunno what to call it, for its death. LOL

Escape what? You might ask, for starters there is a bitch of a person that I don't know who keeps sending me messages. And in some other more developed countries I believe its harassing when people do that. In most cases they would press charges, but in this country because we are so jolly and accommodating we don't do that. We only ignore things even if you get harassed by malicious content. I'm quite the little borderline sexually perverted kid, so when I say its filled with malicious content I do mean just that.

Excuse number two (2), I am escaping the contact. I'm usually always on Facebook, if I'm not in front of a computer, my mobile keeps me connected through the social media. I don't want people to reach me. If you're asking me which people I'm talking about. There's the number one person, which I have freely forgiven, as to the acceptance of the forgiveness I'm not too sure. Then there's the number two, a group of people that I later found out to be unworthy of trust. Sure, they can contact me via mobile. BUT, of course text messaging is a two way street, and unlike Facebook messaging there is not a green dot that tell people you are active and you are truly online. They can only hope that I got the message and pray in all their hearts that I respond. (Now ofcourse, I do not. I don't even take calls from school especially before 8am and past 5pm; and in extreme cases at noon.)

Excuse number three (3), the general detachment from everyone. Excluding you guys of course, since I love you all and I always keep you posted. :) Its just right now I don't want anything or anyone to influence anything in me. I just see random things posted by random people in Facebook and it hits me, and that's just very much a big deal for me. It makes me want to do the most random things saps would do. Like oh, I don't know, cry maybe?

Facebook is a waste of my time, I look at it in this way, if I stop using Facebook I can use my free time to study and focus on more trivial matters. I can socialize by seeing people and not by clicking keys and looking through a screen. It leads to a more personal relationship. HOHOHOHO.

I'm not saying its hard, I have to constantly deny myself of re-activating my account just so I can give myself momentary satisfaction and know what's happening with most people I care about and can only contact through the social network. (which also leads us to excuse number (4), the craving to know what goes on into other people's lives, and to stalk their every update.)

It will be for the best I guess. It has to be.

xxx,
K <3

Law and Marketing

I was privileged enough to meet Mr. Alexander Flores, an entrepreneur (like my major), a broadcaster, a speech and drama major (just to list a few things I know about him.)

I talked to this guy for about 3 hours, where we discussed career, love life, politics, the past and the future. He gave me advise, what I should focus on, which path I should take.

An inspiration struck me not long ago. While I was studying for my law exam, a law major gave me reviewers and it hit me, "hey! this is not at all too hard for me!" And with that idea I realized maybe it won't be such a bad idea to take up law as a second degree with Thea studying philosophy or whichever it was (I forgot) and possibly with her boyfe in law.

Now, this guy- Alex, told me that the heart of my major is marketing. I kind of agree with him since all parts of my business plan is somehow in marketing. (Technically speaking business planning is marketing in one word, from choosing who you're gonna sell to where to how its all in the marketing.)

One thing that Alex said and hit me like a bull's eye is to focus in my career (that's why he told me to study marketing) and not my love life. He said that although I maybe smart and pretty that would all be no use if "uunahin ko ang kalandian" to quote him. I would ruin my chances. He asked me if I had a boyfriend and said that although there is nothing wrong with having a boyfriend, it's not very useful for me in this state of time. He told me to stay driven and to keep a passionate heart.


I look into the future and it is not so dark anymore. It's finally taking shape. I think I know what to do now. What I'll do in the future. Its funny how it took me twenty years to stop being the same clueless little gurl I was.

xxx,
K <3

A forgiving heart

Good evening,

I'm sorry to have to do this but I lost your number accidentally.

Anyway just to express what I have to, I forgive you on all offenses. After long talks in and out of UST, I don't want to make my world smaller by shutting you out. I have realized how uneasy it makes me feel to be in certain places and situations. I figured it must be deep rooted. So in order to make peace and make things right I also ask for your forgiveness. Whatever tension there is between is needs to vanish. I think it was you asking for closure? Not sure. But yeah. So uhm, I'd wish you luck but seeing how I don't believe in luck, I hope you get blessed with whatever it is you are praying for.

Good night.

And so I realize that there is no reason for me to have panic attacks. I hope by forgiving him (via a message ^ that one.) I get to set my heart right. And I won't feel nauseous at his college. :)

xxx,
K <3

Weird Dream Strikes Late at Night

I barely remember when was the last time I had a dream. (Its a given that everyone dreams about 4-6 times when they sleep but I don't recall most of mine anyway.) I had a dream. And its almost the most exact, precise, random thing on earth...

My dream was about a certain seafood, (you can ask me questions if you guys still don't know who I'm talking about.) whom I took time to avoid due to personal reasons. We don't talk anymore, or text, or call each other. We have simply stopped reaching out to each other. I don't keep his number, and he (I think) does not keep mine either (I reckon, maybe.) I am certain that I was not thinking about anyone before sleep. So it is a little too weird if you guys tell me that I am exhausting the idea of him.

My dream bordered on the extremes--- sex and abstinence. Which is also a weird theme cause number one (1) why would I be having weird fantasies about a guy whom I do not talk to anymore, and number (2) why would I have that as a general theme? Its a little too RH bill, and I was no where near that bill discussion lately...

I will now proceed to disclosing my dream... (not too sure about the order but I believe it went this way...)

I was with seafood, at a mall. Originally I thought I was alone, watching people skate (that narrows down the malls we were in) but something happened and suddenly he was there. We were talking about books, not sure why though, we never actually talk about books. Usually we would talk about his relationship problems, my culinary skills, and fashion (a common interest.) How I never maintained my own library instead I give them away after over exhausting them (or never reading them at all.) And then all of a sudden it was making-out-in-a-corner (which is weird cause there ain't no malls with a corner where noone can see you.) But it happened. With certain focuses on certain things. We were still talking, like discussing a crime in a hushed down tone. That's when I realized I was wearing UST AB's uniform. (TALK ABOUT WEIRD!) I have no intention of ever being caught dead in one, unless if its like me trying to cosplay as a UST kid which is rather unlikely if you ask me. And for the fear of getting caught (cause we were in a discussion and suddenly Chihiro's name was dropped in there, massive cover up of how she was skating.) we flee. He looks down at the rink (obviously looks like we were at MOA). Which would mean we were at the second floor. He only sees three skaters all females and asks me which is Chihiro. I see everyone's backs, and poof* there you are, but I didn't get to point you out. We fled, to what seems like a bazaar, he sat at a desk, the lady selling said the tour was starting, we ran to the vehicle after a long corridor of people selling, and come out at an alley that looks like the outside of a provincial filipino talipapa/ tiangge, I point out where the vehicle is, but we dodge that and ride a jeep instead. (I didn't have any money.) He  paid again. And then we left. The jeep was going to Amorante/ Amoranto? And something about novaliches was being discussed. We then see St. Louis a college in Baguio. There was a nun looking at me. 

My dream ends with an idea, given to me by a nun... (Although nuns exist, my religion does not actually believe in them or their use in the society, we do not pray to the Holy virgin mother of Christ.)

Pray together. Stay together. Abstinence. (words were not said, but the idea was clearly delivered to my head.)

Some details are missing in the story but I dunno, I remember them but I can't place them in the sequence.

Off to take my midterms now. :)

xxx,

K <3

Huffed and Puffed Up Like A Big Bad Wolf

Hi Tissue Poets,

Just blogging while I still can. I'll go straight to the point...

I woke up from a rather short amount of sleep this morning (at around 3 or 4 am.) The reason behind my sudden eye opening is still a mystery. All I know is this, I felt a sort of tingling in my face. A coldness. Then a stinging pin-like pricking.

I was not at all bothered at first. I was thinking, "oh hey, the weather is all cold I'm experiencing this chill." I thought it would be those snow storm feeling outside New York when its winter. I went back to bed, and when I woke up a quarter of my face has swelled up. ( I ignored that again. Me and my sudden impulse to ignore things and control my body with my "strong will." )

Let's skip what I did for the most part of the day, which was eating and sleeping. So I woke up from my "rest" this afternoon and I felt my face numb. And when I looked at myself in the mirror--- half my face is huffed and puffed up like the big bad wolf in the Three Little Pigs before he blew the house down. Sigh. I feel terrible. And for reasons like I might not be able to blog for the most part of next week (emphasis on the might) I am blogging.

So there we go. :/ Hope everyone is doing well!

xxx,
K <3

Pix or It Diint Happen

Just dropping by to post photos. :))

One of my more crazy photos, you guys know I like twisting my body in weird poses.

with my friend Shiela, and gay guy Pipoy

Student Council and Alumni friends

Overexposed foto with friend Shiela

One of my fans (really awesome guy) Nathan

Standard looking down foto, I look weird I know.

xxx,
K <3

Rush

The party had the best food (in my three years of coming to this event...) but it was the also the most boring party I had been to in my life. :O Like seriously, I'm not kidding!

They served chicken fingers in tartar sauce (supposedly) with a sidde of mixed vegetables. Compared to the previous years, of (1) pasta with no sauce; and (2) spoiled dinner this menu is far far far ahead of the two. It was well seasoned. A complete meal. I was full. And it was not hard to swallow.

But the party... WHAT A DRAG. Even the song selection. I ended up prettending to have fun and taking calls. They had some good songs though. Really awesome ones from way back in the day. Like 1970's, and the only reason you danced to that would either be a ballroom class for Phys Ed or being forced into one as a kid by your family. I still think ballroom songs are better than lame ass couple dance slow songs where people hold each other and just sway like props in the dance floor. If you can imagine this, it started out as an anemic version of a rave, song choice was okay (the blinding blinking lights weren't there anymore, I guess that's what made it so anemic) then in a good transition ballroom song happens and awesome people were left. There were crazy ones in their own little circle. They were funny, he won a Samsung phone because of that. Then there were all girls trying to step-ball-change as a group, that was quite amusing. Its like an elementary class practicing their showcase (in elementary school it was not really called showcase, I just don't remember the right term.) The dance troupe was also there, they were in the middle, synchronized and perfectly choreographed routine for every song. And then there was I, with a couple of the same gender. We were dancing as a group of three. It was a lot of work. That was the only time I had fun. For the most part I was a wallflower. Everyone saying "hi" but I didn't really mingle.

I'd post pictures. But I didn't bring a camera. So my photos are in other people's camera. And I can't do much but wait.

xxx,
K <3

Friendship is magic.

I need to start packing as soon as possible for my weekend trip to 'somewhere I don't feel like naming' so this will be quick. Today's been great, so far. I overslept so I didn't get to attend my morning class, but the afternoon went really well (though I decided to skip my afternoon class as well since I had a bit of a headache and I didn't feel prepared for class).

When I finally got to the university at around one or two o'clock in the afternoon, I headed straight for our publication's office. It was the 'waiver distribution day' for this annual seminar in which participants are given the chance to get to know themselves, their organisation, and their craft better. Since the slots were limited, staffers of the publication followed the editors everywhere, anticipating the flight of the to-be-ridiculously-crumpled waiver. When I got there, someone told me there were only four slots remaining, so I decided to just sit down outside the office and hate on myself for being late.

It was when someone got a waiver that I decided to enter the office and join the crowd of 'Waiver Warriors'. One of the editors soon released another waiver, and I fought over it with another staffer (don't worry, it wasn't a violent fight). Feeling completely fortunate for getting a waiver despite having just arrived, I almost forgot to check if the waiver I got was real. I panicked for a while when I saw the writings on the waiver until I realised it was just the media office director's signature.

It was later when I found out that Bollywood Survivor (I know, I'm getting worse at naming people), a friend of mine and a co-staffer, had actually kicked the paper to send it flying towards me. I was so grateful and so glad to have been helped by him. It would definitely be fun to be 'seminar-mates' with him—I just really hope nothing would go wrong so that I can surely go to the seminar and be able to experience my first out-of-town trip ever with my co-staffers and editors.

I soon decided to hang out with Mystique and three other friends (yes, too lazy to name them, but just so I remember them they will be temporarily called Prince of Persia, Double Blast and The Inquisition). Mystique and I spent the time talking about the food situation in the country whilst the three dudes talked about derpy things. At some point, we were all exclaiming 'aww' because Double Blast looked adorable in his primary school photos. Soon enough, Weirdo and Haku arrived. The guys wanted to play video games so Weirdo decided to go with them. Haku, Mystique and I decided to go to a Japanese place and have dinner there.

Dinner at the Japanese place made me realise how much I missed my late-night conversations with Haku and Mystique from last year. It used to be that, whilst waiting for Mystique to finish her night class, Haku and I would hang out somewhere and just have really random conversations. Once Mystique is done, we would then grab dinner from somewhere cheap and plan out things we wanted to do for the rest of the year. Though we didn't get to do all of the plans, most of them were a success. We held a pagan ritual in September, a photoshoot for Athene's class in November, a Yule Ball in December and a rather delayed Tea Party in January, I think.

Remembering those times, I think I want to do more fun activities with Haku, Mystique and the rest of our friends. This, I know, is what I've been wishing for all my life: two best friends who I could be at my stupidest, ugliest and saddest with, and yet they still stand by me no matter what. They even bring balance to the equation: Haku tends to spoil me and do all he can to make me smile again, but Mystique knows how to make me give myself reality checks and bitch slaps.

Tomorrow (or in a few hours, actually) I leave for a country where my brother is currently at to support his athletic career. I'm so proud of my brother (I never got this far when I was still doing his current sport) and I believe he will go places in life. I've also got to finish writing a story by today because it's the deadline my editor set for me. I suppose, what I'm trying to say is that I'd love to talk more about my friends, but I think I've got to either pack or get some rest now. I'll let you all know how it goes. Now, it's adventure time!

xoxo,
Chihiro

Because good company cancels out bad days.

Today's a great day. Whilst it had a rather awful beginning, I went home happy and the happiness I feel right now is what matters. It's actually surprising for the day to have gotten better considering how I was practically ready to explode come ten in the morning—I was late for my meeting with my professor, and the lack of sleep along with the horrible traffic got me ridiculously cranky. I brooded upon this until eleven when I finally decided to find some of my friends in school, only to find out that classes were finally announced to be suspended and that most of my friends just decided to go home.

Fortunately for me, I managed to hang out with Poison Ivy and Fortune Cookie (Sorry, dude, I'll think of a better one for you) in Fortune Cookie's flat. We had McDonald's take-away for lunch, watched How I Met Your Mother and discussed the most random things we could talk about. At around two o'clock in the afternoon, Haku texted me saying he can go meet up with me. So we all decided to meet up with Haku by waiting for him at the 7-11 on the ground floor. When Haku finally arrived, we just ate popcorn and talked about random things yet again until Poison Ivy decided to go home and Fortune Cookie decided to go back to his flat. Haku and I thought about the possibility of watching 'Brave', but we decided to just watch it next week.

Haku and I eventually decided to go to the mall to get solution for my contact lenses. We hung out and possibly freaked some people out due to our weirdness, but hey, who cares? After talking about either the silliest or sweetest things whilst walking around the mall, we finally decided to grab dinner at a Mexican place. The food was good, the conversation was brilliant (as always) and I just could not seem to stop smiling. Due to the whole Cinderella meets Rapunzel thing I've got lately, we had to leave soon, so Haku decided to accompany me to the bus station by taking the cab with me.

In front of the buses, we hugged and tried not to feel too sad about having to part. Before I left, I kissed him and said, 'I wish I could just go home to you.'

Looking me in the eyes, he replied, 'But you already are home.' He then hugged me even tighter and I buried my face in his chest. Yes, he's right. At that moment, I truly was home.

When I finally got to check my Facebook account, I came upon the 'Question of the Day' post in my organisation's Facebook group. The question was, 'Name 5 ways one can win your heart.' I wanted to answer 'No need for 5 ways if you're Haku' but I decided against it because that was just ridiculously cheesy. So instead of serving world-class Brie, this was my answer:

‎1. Don't be just my significant other—be best friends with me.
2. Discuss art, literature and philosophy with me. Don't be afraid of challenging my beliefs. Make me question even myself.
3. Make out with me and do other couple things like there's no tomorrow. Give me that spark even just by holding my hand or kissing my hair.
4. Go on adventures with me. Explore the world with me. Just basically be open to new experiences with me.
5. Above all, be at your most comfortable with me.

Guess who's done and doing all of the above. Have a great Thursday/Friday, all you lovely people!

xoxo,
Chihiro

On blogging semi-hiatus

If you follow my other blog, you might have noticed that it's currently set on private. It's nothing personal, I just need to take the time off the interwebs for now. Seeing so much negativity on the Internet can trigger me and have me break the Four Agreements, so maybe it's best I stay away from the Internet for now and keep to the people who make me feel positive in real life. Also, I need to catch up on my readings (I really do regret cutting classes last term) so I'll be a bit busier than usual. I'll still post here every now and then, though (hence the semi-hiatus status). See you around! x

Chihiro

Sometimes I'm too derpy to live.

Hello guys. I'm sorry I haven't been on here lately. Life's been quite busy especially since I've been trying to be more responsible lately. You see, I'm improving, but I'm still as derpy as ever... so it's actually rather difficult. Par exemple, you all know how I usually do not prepare for class at all, right? Well, this term, I actually decided to prepare for class by getting the readings for once. So I go up to the third floor of the Liberal Arts building to get my photocopies. At the photocopy booth, the photocopy person gave me this rather thin article about Literature and History. Since the class I'm in is a Literary History class, I was like, 'Well, why not?' The thing is, it is only an hour ago when I realised how a. The article was about Rizal, a topic discussed in another class I'm not a part of; b. The photocopy person asked me if there are eight students in my class and I said yes, but no there are actually more or less 12 and the Rizal class has eight; c. The article I've got right now is not the same as the articles listed on the syllabus; and d. I'm stupid.

So I'm going to class tomorrow absolutely unprepared unless I manage to get photocopies before class tomorrow morning, and the thing is, my class starts at 8fuckingAM. I'm seriously screwed, guys. It would've been okay if my professor wasn't the RECITE-FOR-ME-YOU-INFIDELS type of professor, but whilst she's not one to say 'You infidels' she still mentioned how she'll be randomly calling people and that she expects them to be able to answer her questions. Oh, and get this - she's the head of my course's department.

Oh god, all I want right now are brain cells and much luck. I'm never one to sacrifice my fashion skills, but for this I am willing to not go near any boutiques (to shop for myself) for a month. Ah this is so terrible oh my glob someone save me, please?

Last Night,

Haku and I were looking at this one star that seemed to have different colours: bluish white and red. I theorised that it is actually a star cluster or something of the sort. It was shining brightly at around 8pm, so Haku and I talked about how there could be war happening amongst those stars, but the saddest thing about it is that we already know that the war is over. So now the question is, who lost and who remained?

At around 10pm, we looked at it again only to find its light dimmer this time. This time, we had no words for it, only gazes of wonder.

Nyar nyar mode

I'm having a closer relationship with God these days. For the first time, I became preacher for a day :D I was a bit doubtful of my skills at first but I know God is with me in this. He won't put me in places that I cannot handle. So, yeah, I did a good job!!! :D <3

I've learned so many things from God these days. I think my prayer has already been answered a long long time ago but I was just blinded by my own actions, that I am unable to hear God's words. I've been praying for an answer if I should move on or not. Now, I realize I must...

I love this person so much. I really do. This is Baka-sama, as you know him. I never thought that I be able to have strong feelings for a particular guy. I have been longing for him for these past two years now. God has answered my prayer. At times, the things that we want are not given to us no matter how much we ask or how much we pray for it. It is not because God doesn't want us to be happy, the truth is He WANTS us to be happy. He might not give it to you because of two things:

* That blessing is NOT good for you FOR THE MOMENT.
* That blessing is NOT good FOR YOU AT ALL.

Well, I guess it is just a plain sight to see, that it is not meant to be. But I will forever hold him in my heart. I am touched, though. It's because of the drawing that I gave him. He actually used it as a design on his clear atachi case (whatever you call that thing which you can place your folders and knick knacks.) He placed it there where anyone can see it if he pulls it out. Whatever the reason, it does not matter anymore. I have already decided to follow God's path for me.

It is not friendship I am after but something more in our case. Since I love this person, I know for now I cannot be his friend, I repeat for now... I've taken another section where he is not my lab mate. So, I would see him less (mostly on lecture classes). A very good thing. If he ever finds a new girl I know I would cry but what I really wish is that when he does, I want this attraction, love or whatever you call it, to have faded away. Yes, I wish I no longer have any feelings for him when the time comes.

So guys keep me strong. I know God is beside me (everyone of us, too :D) always. But I also want my friends to be with me on this. For I know the heart is weak and very deceitful, that the line "follow your heart" IS NOT applicable anymore.

Yes... I'll miss him...

I met my personal Yubaba.

Hello TPs and readers of the Tissue Poets' blog! I know I have neither responded nor posted in this blog for quite a while now, and I'm very sorry about that. It's been a bit of a tiring month, especially since it's almost finals week and we're all on the verge of seeking that pill from Limitless. (Speaking of which, I had the book before it was fucking cool! It's called The Dark Fields and it was written by Alan Glynn. Unfortunately, I sort of gave the book away to someone. Oh well whatevs.) Anyway, I hope you guys have been doing well and that you're not yet looking like a zombie like me. So much has happened during the past few weeks, but time is flying by so fast that I feel like I'm riding a winged rhinoceros and it just wants to throw me off its back. Ah, damn you university student problems.

So, Fluttershy, I'm glad to see you posting something more cheerful than usual. Same goes for you, Kleenex. Things seem to be looking up for the three of us, and I hope it stays that way. It's been a depressing first quarter for 2012, hasn't it? I hate saying this because it's such an overused friendship line but we're all in this together so I want you two to know that even if I don't comment on your posts or respond to your text messages I'm still here and that I'm probably not replying because my eyelids have become really heavy and just the struggle to keep on reading is enough to make my energy balloon go ka-boom.

I suppose I should end it here now, I think this is good enough to let you guys know that I'm still alive. I can't stop yawning, and I still have got to wake up at maybe 4 or 5 am tomorrow to revise my paper.

I'm really looking forward to experiencing summer. I am so going to get a tan, so fuck the things that have made me super pale.

LAST DAY

Hey guys,

just dropping by to give you love. Its my last day of exams... And well next week, I'm free as a guy who broke out of jail and rolled around the mud three times. :) I still have to take one exam next week cause I'm a lazy ass like that and because I'm awesomely chill. I got a 2.0 in one of my classes (ehem business research.) It could have been better, but I'm only happy that it wasn't lower. :) I had wished to get a higher grade, I set goals for 1.0s only. I didn't meet it, and I can only blame myself.

Let's do our best guys! This is it. (I sound like I'm graduating.)

Much love,
K, xxx

<3Ps I'm dipping my toes in the lake of politics next semester and I fully expressed my intentions of doing so. :)

My Life is Disney.

Copy-paste from my Tumblr:


So this morning, Haku, Weirdo and I decided to have breakfast together at McDonald’s. Every moment I spend with these guys is actually worthy of being documented (speaking of which, remind me to start that ZAG blog soon) but I will document this one because it involved assigning our friends to their Disney Princesses counterparts.

Yep, you read that right.

I can’t really remember how this conversation started. I think it started because I was singing the Healing Incantation song and then I remembered how Postpunk and I talked about this Disney counterpart thing yesterday after we saw the shippy Tumblr post. So anyway, I’ll just skip to the part in which we finally found our friends’ Disney counterparts. If you don’t like your counterpart, then… you don’t like your counterpart. Yep. Cool, isn’t it.

PS

If you’re not in the list please don’t hold it against us, it just means we haven’t thought of your Disney counterpart yet. Sorry. :(

The List:

• Postpunk as Arielle from The Little Mermaid (Teenager with a rebellious personality, loves fish, eternally curious, has boobs lol)
• Mystique as Mulan from Mulan (Chiners, badass, breaks the stereotype, weirdo)
• Persephone as Pocahontas from Pocahontas (loves nature, fights for her advocacies, animals love her)
• Esmeralda (lol I haven't really given her a nickname before so this works) as the Asian version of Esmeralda from The Hunchback of Notre Dame (Her love of the Romani/bohemian lifestyle, not afraid of going after what she wants, independent—she has other friends, after all.)
• Athene as Belle from Beauty and the Beast (loves books, sacrifices herself too much, loyal, doesn’t judge people)
• Tinuviel as Princess Jasmine from Aladdin (Actually I don’t really know what Jasmine’s personality is like, but Tinuviel likes her so we just assigned her to Jasmine lol.)
• Delirium as… wait for it… Mushu from Mulan and Meg from Hercules (Apparently, Delirium makes a good troll character, so she’s going to be Mushu whilst Angie is Mulan. Cool, isn’t it? She’s also Meg because she gets to sing ‘I won’t say I’m in love’ lol. Besides, we really couldn’t find a Disney Princess who’s similar to her except for—in a way—Meg.)
• Boobs as… oh god this is another one… Ursula from The Little Mermaid (For the record, she’s a much hotter version of Ursula. We couldn’t pick a princess counterpart for her because she doesn’t really act like any of them, but we chose Ursula because she’s such a sexual character and Boobs can pull that off—what’s even better is that Boobs is hot so the sexual musical scene will be super effective. 8D)
• Me as Rapunzel from Tangled (Haku says that apparently I am Rapunzel lol. Let’s see: eternally curious teenager, dabbles into a lot of things due to boredom with a sheltered life, had long blonde hair which is now short and dark brown, bipolar, a girly tomboy if that makes sense, plus getting to hit Haku with a frying pan will be cool.)

This is seriously making me consider changing my nickname to Rapunzel, but then I'd have to edit a lot of posts lol so nevermind. Forever a Chihiro. 8D

Mah Life is Over Fo Sho.

So today, we had this exam on The Iliad and I believe I totally got slaughtered due to how I only studied for it approximately eight or nine hours before the exam. Yeah, you guys are probably thinking, "The Iliad? Girl, ain't that like knowing ABC for Literature-obsessed people like you?"

Well, apparently, ABCs can be also quite difficult to memorise. I mean, if knowing the alphabet is similar to memorising every bit of information contained in an epic composed of about 500 pages, then yeah, kindergärtners are pretty damn screwed. And if these are kindergärtners that we're talking about, what will happen to me? What will happen to Literature majors like me? We take these shit seriously. I need to be able to explain why Zeus sent a marauder as a symbol of Hektor's death to Priam, and why Achilleus is in fact a semi-closet pansexual.

I'm scah-rewed, like scah-rewed with a capital pronunciation because such a thing does exist in my world. I got a 19 out of 32 or 33 items in the objective part of the exam, and I don't even know how my essays fared. I just hope they're good enough to get me to pass this subject, 'cause I cannot fucking fail. (Well, the proper term should be "must not", but for greater impact I shall use the word "cannot".)

Oh, and have I mentioned I think I'm totally not rocking my other classes as well? I answered today's quiz on New Formalism in the stupidest possible way, and I don't think my grade for another certain major is even presentable enough.

I bring shame to the Literature department of my university. I won't be surprised if I get kicked out of the program. Sigh.

The only good thing that's happening right now is that I've confirmed that Weirdo isn't mad at me anymore. (Long story short, I had an outburst last Saturday night. I said a lot of mean things. Bitch Chihiro was activated.) And that Haku's also a tsundere. And that I miss him. (That's a good thing, right?) So yeah.

Please wish me luck, or pray for me or send me positive energy or whatever. You guys are always included in my "not-prayers".