On Haku's Dorkiness And Relationships

EXT     FRONT STEPS OF FLAT     NIGHT

Except for the sound of cars passing by and the voices of the people in the area, it's quiet and the lights provide a candlelight-like glow. Chihiro, eighteen, and Haku, forever nineteen, are sitting down on the front steps facing each other. They're looking at each other in the eye. Haku takes Chihiro's hand. It's rather cold, so Chihiro moves closer. Haku holds Chihiro's hand close to his chest.

Haku

I like looking at... 

(Epic hand gesture with his free hand, turns slightly away) 

My face. In the mirror. 'Cause I'm so in love with myself.

Chihiro

(Smiles and brushes fingers through Haku's hair) 

I like brushing my fingers through... 

(Suddenly brushes own hair) 

My hair. It's just so soft and silky.

LOL FWAHAHA OVER!

The context of this scenario is that there's a couple who keep on saying misleading cheesy lines to each other, as exemplified above. It was my idea, methinks.

I'm so sorry, Haku. D: I just had to post this. It's too damn campy for words. I'd make a comic out of this if I weren't too lazy lol.

Anyway, Haku and I have been good lately to those who are wondering (I think this is mostly Fluttershy LOL). Ever since what happened, we both realised how important it is to be honest with each other. I finally managed to tell him the things that have been bothering me, and so did he. It feels really good to be honest with each other. I now wonder why we never had the guts to really apply the 'transparency' thing we talked about before. I suppose it's because deep down we were so afraid of finding things out about each other that we wouldn't like or something of the sort. I realised that thanks to Mystique. We've also gotten more affectionate LOL but I don't really mind. Secretly, I'm actually rather affectionate—it's just that for the longest time I didn't want to acknowledge that aspect of myself because I didn't want to look clingy. Then again, isn't that why friends stay friends? Deep down, we all need each other. You can grow 'independently', but it's the relationships you have with people that encourage you to grow.

The Month of Revelations: The Complete Version

"Furthermore, it goes without saying that all of the people, living, dead and otherwise in this story are fictional or used in a fictional context. Only the gods are real."

-Neil Gaiman, American Gods

After a long spiritual hiatus, I finally feel like praying. Guess what I want to pray about. See this post if you need clues.

I find it funny because this month, another friend of mine is also going through the same thing. I've mentioned him in this blog before as Kamen Rider. Anyway, before January 2012 he is what you would call a 'Devout Atheist' (Epithet courtesy of either Weirdo or Poison Ivy—I honestly can't remember). This would've gone on if it weren't for something that happened this month, along with many other realisations/epiphanies. Looking back, when I first heard him talk about how he's becoming a Christian, I was actually quite 'meh okay whatever' about it. I suppose it's because my faith hasn't really been present lately. Maybe it was there, but it was probably in the backstage trying to fix broken props or something of the sort. Whatever. The point is that I was passive about faith. And I was also quite sceptical of it in my own way. But what I didn't realise was that I've been passively seeking faith all this time—and it was so passive it had to take something this huge for me to realise that I need it.

I actually envy my friends who are very spiritual in their own ways. I envy Mystique for managing to have at least a grasp of how to mix Catholicism with the occult. I envy Athene for her strong faith in God despite the problems she's been going through lately. I envy Pretty Girl and Haku for being stable practitioners. I envy Poison Ivy and Frodo for their ability to be spiritual despite having a totally different take on how God is like.

Maybe this is why I always have the Goth girl reputation everywhere I go. People always go like, 'She doesn't believe in God!' LOL You all sound like misconception gamer girl, bitches. And don't ask about misconception gamer girl, it's a long story.

Anyway, the point of what I'm trying to say is that for once, something was enough to trigger my belief in God and spirituality. I want to hold on so much that I'm actually turning to a Higher Power just so He/She could help me. Don't get me wrong, though. I am not turning to religion, or to any other organised thing that talks about a Higher Power and His/Her set of rules. I still don't believe anyone can define who or what the Higher Power is, because He/She is beyond all things we can perceive and conceive in this world. The Higher Power is the universe, and yet He/She is also beyond the universe. And that to try to name and define Him/Her is limiting, so I do not want to do that.

I want to be at one with the Higher Power. I want to spread out my arms and call out, 'I am here. I am a part of you, just as how I have a spark of you in me. Please listen to what I want to say.'

Perhaps, one of these days, I'll find a place where I can actually try to be at one with the Higher Power for the moment. Persephone, a friend of mine who's highly into spirituality, invited me to go with her to her province tomorrow for a talk a famous parapsychologist will have on Tuesday. I'm looking forward to learning more from that talk, along with spending time with Persephone and Weirdo and getting to know a place I'm not exactly familiar with. On Saturday, I will be going to a retreat with Mystique, Kamen Rider and Trench to be held at a place near mine. I can't wait to spend time with them in a place where pressure isn't polluting the atmosphere. I'd definitely love to use the time to actually meditate and/or pray with three of my favourite people in the world.

Like Sappho, I pray to Aphrodite. Besides, Sappho would probably be proud of me. It was a 'lesbian relationship', after all.

Best Day Yet, It's Not Even Noon

Yesterday I thought that was the best day of my life. This year is really a blessed year. Only good things would happen to us. :) Someone's watching over us.

So let me tell you why I think this is the best day. For you to understand it better I'd have to start from a few nights ago. Before the Chinese new year. I was feeling terrible. January 19, if I remember correctly. I couldn't stop thinking about someone... Someone I can not remember anymore *ehem ehem*. I remember feeling hurt and always in the verge of breaking down and crying... Two days ago, one of my good sister friends (let's call her Moo) told me to "push yourself to see us" after she heard of my condition (again, which was just horrible.) And I was not really in the mood to see anyone. When I got to her school, which is where *someone I can't remember* also studies and where we met (and hoped we'd meet again that day), I felt sick. Nauseating vomit wanting feeling. I felt dizzy and my stomach just was not at home there. I kept looking down. And praying they would find me already. After a few minutes they told me directions and POOF I went to where they are...

Moo was not there yet. Barbeque and Stick where there though. It made me smile how Barbeque said I didn't look pregnant... (his way of saying I look good.) We talked about a lot of things. When Moo finally came we all had coffee and donuts. But what really made me happy was our Political and Business centered conversations (its fitting cause I'm a business major and she a political major.) We talked about the economy and the politics how the Philippines would rise and how other Asian countries did. And then we talked about SHOES.

Shoes is one of those common things about women. We all love shoes. Flats, heels, boots, stilettos, sandals, name it and girls would just have an orgasm and go gaga over it. I am one of those people who love shoes. And well Moo and I were talking about Shoes when it hit her that we can make it a business. Now of course, that has also hit me before, but what genuinely made me happier was that she knows shoe-a-holics who splurge on shoes. Now, if you buy a pair of pumps at a mall, that would cost you more than a thousand on the minimum, but if you buy from us its like getting a VVIP card and a huge discounted deal. :) Now who wouldn't want that? I don't know about you, but I want a VVIP card and discounts just from loving shoes...

So now, why do I say this is the best day? Today is the best because I got my first client. OHYEAH! On shoes I designed OHYEAHOHYEAH!

Business minds for business majors... Always the coolest.
Kleenex

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P.S.
I'm thinking of going blonde. But I don't know if that'll work. What do you think?