What If.

What if I ended my life as abruptly as Weirdo ended our YM conversation?

What if my decision to move out of my university last year (around February) pushed through?

What if I hadn't untied the rope around my neck last summer?

What if... what if I didn't have to resort to scare tactics or appeal to pity just so I'd know that people actually care for me?

I'm sorry, but I'm really offended right now. I'm more confused than ever. Tell me, what have I done to deserve all these shits in my life?