Sigh... Why am I avoiding him? But I must... I want to move on and get you out of my freaking life!!! It's hard especially if you are part of one friend circle. I keep on going beside sugar-koi and the others and not minding him.
I care for him so much but sadly it would never be reciprocated. What's the use of wasting my tears, doing all I can if it will only result to nothing. What the hell is wrong with me to wait for something that I already know will only end to hopelessness. Why should I try my hardest for a guy who would only think of me as a friend and nothing else? I should wait for a guy who would love me just the way I am. Someone who would fall in love with me without me trying anything. They say every single person in the world has someone for them. I'm wondering if mine was actually killed by a train.
Having an honest and long-lasting relationship these days are very rare. Society gives a wrong impression on how love is. Sigh...
But for now, let me cry and count my tears 'til I get over you...
I was about to offer you comforting words until I saw the last line on your second paragraph.
ReplyDeleteIt made me laugh. (I hate how dark my humour is. And I do apologise for laughing when it's clearly a serious post.)
Anyway, I'm not going to give you optimistic shit because I believe in the now; therefore, I'll just tell you that I'm proud of you. I'm proud of how you handle this situation, and how strong you are. May you always have this strength. <3
I'm not really helping, am I? DX