Hiding my guy friend's name to Sugar-koi :D
A peculiar movie night with my friends. While sitting on the floor, Sugar-koi and I were left behind waiting for the others to return with the snacks which includes Baka-sama(you know what i mean). Sugar-koi asked "Do you hate him?" I just hugged my knees and nonchalantly said no. But deep inside my mind and my heart there were so many things I wanted to say. But somehow I just couldn't share this feeling so completely and expressively as I can. But I think Sugar-koi already understands, I don't need to elaborate it to him. He knows me too very well for his own good, which at times pisses me off. Whenever Baka-sama is sick, Sugar-koi would immediately whisper in my ear and tease me to hug the poor unfortunate soul. Kill this jerk!!! But I would just say the bitter line "Even if I wanted so much to heal him, I'm just not right medicine" Unfortunately, he would completely ignore me and continue shouting "H-U-G" whenever Baka-sama was near. Hahaha but I love this Sugar-koi in a sibling way, don't get any ideas. Glad to have someone who understands, able to hug me and hold my hand without any malice :)
To elaborate my no. There are so many reasons why I should hate Baka-sama but I cannot fathom any ill-will against him. He always bullies me but I guess that is the only way he could communicate with me without any hassle. Yeah there are many sweet moments, too. Too many to mention LOL
But, truth be told he still lingers in my heart, soon, I will forget him. Don't know when or how but I will. I want to move on but how can I if I still hold on to that tiny strand of hope that will lead to nowhere. I am definitely chasing pavements... *sigh* For all the guys why does it have to be with my guy friend. Scumbag life. Hehehe Someday I will know the reason. I must not regret!!!
Awww.... I know how you feel.
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