I've read something that I should not have read but we all know, in FB, nothing can be kept secret for long. Sadly, I've read that "he" has a new girl that he fancies. The girl doesn't know him yet though. Apparently, they said it was just a crush. I know that time will come sooner or later but why oh why have I accidentally read it on the news feed. :<
I'm feeling kind of sad, though. Not only that but I'm kind of angry, too! Which I should be not. I do not own him and this jealousy thing is stupid. Sigh, having one-sided feelings and all. I know I should be moving on and I thought some of my feelings have faded already but somehow, in the end, it made my heart ache. I'm not really lucky when it comes to all this romance and love stuff. I guess all I can be is a forever alone hopeless romantic cat owning girl.
I guess, I have to wait some more and make sure to become a person that will be a blessing to whomever he is.
There was a saying that I have read somewhere that we shouldn't be looking for love for it shows how loveless we are. The loveless never find love but those who are loving finds it. Add to that are the radiant beings. Screw them I was born this way. Anyway, yeah I want to tear my heart out right now or rather give my heart a break.
*hugs*
ReplyDeleteOh, Fluttershy! I honestly do not think you're 'looking for love', I think it just so happened that you met someone who fails to see how lovely you are. You'll be fine, this pain will eventually fade away until someday when you remember him you'll even ask yourself why you even liked him. Take your time to heal. (:
I want to cry but I can't!(parents are here hehehe) Nyuu! Why does he have to make me smile, text me good nights and why for all reasons was he part of my friendship circle :<? It's not doing good for my moving on!
ReplyDeleteSorry for the rant... :< But I really feel awful
Do you think you can tell him to stop texting you good night? I mean, he knows... right?
ReplyDeleteWell, I guess. He only knows it's a crush though. Whatever I guess the other people told him what nots. Somehow I think I can but is that okay? It sounds kind of bad. I don't reply to him anymore actually. So maybe I'll just ignore it and leave him be.
ReplyDeleteWell, if that's the case then I guess you'll just have to think of it as one of those group message people send to their friends. It's easier said than done, but you'll eventually get over him, you know. (: I've said this to a friend before, but I suppose I should say it again... Moving on is like trying to sever an elastic band. The harder you pull and the faster you try to do it, the more it'll hurt you. But if you let it get severed at its own pace without any pressure, you won't even notice that it's already severed. (:
ReplyDeleteThank you :) I know this will need so much time. It has been 3 years of this one-sided thing. Hahaha Sugar-koi will definitely continue to say to me that "from all the guys in the world why do you have to fall for an a**?"
ReplyDeleteBut sadly I still love him even though I want to hate him and do the thing Hulk did to Loki >:)
Oh fluttershy, don't worry love. I'm sure sooner or later it will all be better. We just have to have confidence in it. :) and don't worry I love you. So even if he doesn't notice your greatness know that you are loved.
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