Comes back to me

In your confidence I pour my heart out. I can not even finish a whole sentence without crying. :) But that's fine, after a bucket of tears this post will be done

I realized I haven't a time in my life where I am alone, and without a boyfe (no labels or anything). And after the last one the guy from BioSoc, I haven't been around the block (kudos for me) but I have seen one or two guys over the whole period. So I see that as an unhealthy sign. And so, you as my witness, I vow to no longer see or date guys until I have fully recovered.

 I really think I can no longer keep on running away from this guy. He keeps haunting me. And I just feel the same ache every time. Half of me still keeps wishing he comes back to me. In that note I wanna share Kate Miller Heidke's song Last Day On Earth the lyrics just it speaks of what I feel, and what goes on with me. In my head, in my dreams, in everything really.

I want to write lyrics as beautiful as she does. Its just this calm play of words but the message hits you like a dynamite booming on your face.

Feeling better now. :)